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(1 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) Salutations LJ [07 Oct 2009|01:43am] [ music | Felt - Breaker down like a shotgun ] I've been gone for awhile. To be honest, I've not really done a lot of on-line social interactions as of late. But I think I'm coming back to you. I've got a lot of shit to organize in my life. I would like to chronicle this point in my life and say "Hey, it was kind of a dark time at that time..." Then be able to honestly laugh it off. So... Guess who's back? Back again? Sushi's back. Tell a friend!! ^^Lame reference lol

(4 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) [31 Jul 2009|06:45am] [ music | Sage Francis - Keep Moving ] Arrrgggg lol Don't know what to do? What to say? The ultimate thing I can think of to show I care... ...is to walk away. But does that solve anything? Human nature always show running is easier thank standing up for the fight! But being just a one man army, what can I say? I can move mountains =) But I may have met my match. Defeated before the asension begins...it's crazy to be at the base and feel like the journey's been mostly about the descent. This ramble makes sense in my head. But I also did not even attempt to lie at rest last night. So I'll sprint through the day and after my body/mind/soul have had it's rest... I'll probably feel retarded. This whole ordeal has me feel inspired/crushed all in one well timed blow. I wrote you a message that took 45 min. to come up with. With a few quick keystrokes it was all gone. Adam, remember... One breath at a time. One breath. One. - fin -

(3 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) Hmm... [30 Jul 2009|04:16pm] [ music | Atmosphere - Don't ever question that ] Today is kinda peaceful... They say right before you drown you enter a state of euphoria... I know the truth...well part of it. I feel like I've stopped treading water and now I'm just sinking in it. I'm at peace (not quite euphoric) but I'm calm. I could sleep last night. Now I just have to decide do I swim back up or do I sink further? lol I = Gay I = Know that /sigh Peace, love and Sushi rolls y'all

(Go poo here) Ok this is easy.... [29 Jul 2009|07:44am] Inhale. Exhale. Good! Now rinse and repeat!!! Step 1. Complete. Perhaps I need to stop living day to day and change my focus to living breath to breath.

(4 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) hmm [28 Jul 2009|11:14am] [ music | Boards of Canada - Skyliner ] I stand by Fall being my favorite season...(Spring is a very close second) But there is one thing that summer has going for it.... The Music. The atmosphere. The people. Closest thing I have had to a "spiritual" experience is at these events. I don't know why I was just thinking about it. /shrug. It reinforces how I live my life though....I have memories that will never escape me. Those memories I have, the relationships that I have built will influence my life until the day I die. Music = ♥

(Go poo here) [23 Jul 2009|09:11am] [ music | Cake - Shadow Stepping ] I think I'm going bipolar lol. Is it weird when I get in a "funk" in a sick, twisted kind of way...I enjoy it? Lol it's the whole duality of life. I mean when it rains it pours, but that makes the sun feel that much better eh? lol Now I just feel goofy, and I've typed "lol" too much (Nick would kill me) This should WILL be a good weekend =) \m/.(X.x).\m/

(1 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) /sigh [22 Jul 2009|01:40am] [ music | The thoughts in my head that won't stop screaming... ] Can't sleep. ugh

(Go poo here) [14 Jul 2009|11:32am] Lucid Dreams....

(4 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) /sigh [12 Jul 2009|11:27pm] [ music | My air conditioner ] My back/shoulders are peeling. Gross, I know!! ror, but it saddens me...the last tissue I have that has felt the Sun rays of Rothbury. Rothbury 2009 was just as magically as the first! If you want stories, I am down for it at anytime. \m/. Life. It's strange; coming back from one of more memorable weekends of my life, I got in one of those moods. The same one that has haunted me in the past and will probably always be that Demon lurking in the shadows. The Demon that never quite comes out in plain sight, but always breathing down my back watching my every move..... I guess basically I've become very reflective of where I am at in life. Where I am going. Who is along for the journey, who may be left behind... I love life. I stand by this every fucking single day!!!! But, I sit here and realize that I'm so confused. I feel like I need to talk to someone about it, it just seems so deep and rich that it'd be impossible to do over the phone; via e-mail and as I type; too much for my beloved live journal. I don't know if I can have the full discussion at random with those close to me right now... I don't have faith in myself to convey how I feel right now to have it all make sense. I want to try. This complicated web of emotion is spun and it's so intense to analyze. /sigh. I have to work at 5:30am (UGH) or else I was going to attempt tonight to capture it all. As previously mentioned I don't think I can do it justice, but I use my LJ as a real journal as a place to reflect and see where I was at different points of my life. If I could just have enough to conjure up memories, that would do. It's now 11:40pm and it is still a foreign concept to me of going to sleep this early. Gawd I am running in circles. I don't think tonight is a good night for this. Maybe no night is a good night for this. We'll see what the day brings tommorrow. ( In case I don't come back to this...here's my spiel to myself. No need to click =) )

(Go poo here) Like omg [29 Jun 2009|04:45pm] Today has been most interesting. I am fueled by energy drinks and raw emotion about to run dry. Or maybe physically I'm about to run out lol. That must be it... My mind is racing faster and faster as my body feels slower and slower. Sweet sweet sleep deprivation. I meant for this to have something meaningful...but I give up lol. "I don't want to wonder..."

(11 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) So.. [16 Jun 2009|09:43am] [ music | Neuroticfish - The Bomb ] ...Whatever happened to Andrew WK? I kinda want to listen to an album right now... Strange.

(Go poo here) !!! [08 Jun 2009|11:56am] AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ....umm real monsters? So I'm looking forward to summer rains and porch beer drinking days... BUT I figured I had to note this... =\ Sushi = Overanalytical? NEVER!! Blasphemy!!! hahaha One of my greatest assests turns into my tragic flaw at times. But we'll see how this turns out. I have this gut feeling it's going to have an substantial impact on my outlook of my own intuition. Life can swing either way right now and I hope the wind blows in my favor. Remember this guy? \m/.(X.x).\m/ Bringin' it back yo

(2 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) So question.... [07 Jun 2009|03:04am] [ music | Hum of computer ] ...so LJ/Internet What is Love? Stories, ideas whatever. What is love to you? Just based on a conversation I had earlier, I'm just curious. I know no one reads this anymore..but I'm just throwing out the hail mary lol.

(Go poo here) Random Memory [02 Jun 2009|12:37pm] [ music | Sage Francis - Waterline ] So... Random Memory. I think I just need to vent for a sec... Wow. 1/2 a decade ago I had a choice to make. About 2am I get a phone call... Not verbatim, but I remember the drift. "Sushi, where are you?" "Ypsilanti, what are you up to?" "I'm moving away. Fuck this place I'm going to California" "Wha..what?" "I'm calling because you're the only one I trust to go with me" "I..I can't..." There was some more other chatter...it ended up that I helped her change a tire on I-94 right by the airport. Then she spent the night in the dorm with the lady at the time and I...and it blew over. No California for either of us. Thinking about it at the time and now...I always grew up dreaming of moments like those. Moments where I dare to believe in myself and the unknown. I think that was the first time I denied the dreams of my youth. =\ Have there been other moments like this? Not quite as definite...but there. Now I sit here 5 years later and where has my life gone:? I am a better person. I have had countless experiences that I will never forget...yet I feel slightly stagnat. I feel like I am at a crossroad. Do I keep denying dreams and become more "responsible". Or do I say fuck it and go with the unknown? Or do I continue to try to walk the fine line between both? I don't know if I believe it...But let's go with I'm going to go with the fine line. I just need to redouble my efforts to experience both hemispheres of life!! It's hard not to think of that night right now...but it gives me motivation to do something. A problem I've had in the past.... I kinda feel like I'm only doing one thing right ;) But to move forward as an individual (and my relationship \m/.) I need to follow my responsibilites and to run with my dreams. Peace, Love and Sushi

(4 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) [29 May 2009|11:38pm] Biggest turn off = drama. lol /sigh

(Go poo here) =) [18 May 2009|09:25am] Stardates: 5.15.09 - 5.18.09 lol, I have no idea how stardates are set up. Star Trek was a really good movie btw. But I had a great weekend...and I had to note this point in time, for this weekend I got the feeling of "Here I go again" Usually that is a negative place, full of angst and nervousness...this time it's different. I'm like McDonald's up in this bitch, I'm loving it!! hahahah I am so excited for life right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111111 doot doot Oh remember this? boob poop It's a reflection. Ha. - fin -

(Go poo here) Good weekend =) [04 May 2009|01:30am] [ music | The sound of an overworked laptop fan ] Highlights of my weekend. Friday - Good drunk ol' fun at LUNA!! Especially 'dem dark hallways ;) Saturday - Comic Book Genesis with Marshal!! While doing prep hung out in the D. Random free hardcore concerts, hot dogs and Papa Smurf made for an entertaining Day. I'm sure a story I'll be telling for awhile. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY JAMES TRUITT!! 'twas an excellent night of beer pong, surprise visits from the lady, old/new faces! Today - Zoo/Max and Erma's day. OMG Salad + TORTILLA SOUP + 2 pitchers of water + My Princess = ♥ Well it's early/late. Have a good week LJ.

(2 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) Lawl [27 Apr 2009|12:58pm] Oh man... /sigh O.o \m/. Rock n' roll... Hahaha don't even ask what that means. Umm...I need an air conditioner, like stat.

(Go poo here) I am Scottish [24 Apr 2009|06:17am] Here ya go Marshal ;) My name is Adam Soutar Hahaha it's like Marge Simpson in that one episode! When I was adopted I took on some of the Soutar DNA!

(3 Times that someone has gone poo | Go poo here) Boom! [21 Apr 2009|08:13am] 1 month down! Now that the introduction is down...I'm looking foward to chapter 1! So far this is the story of the Korean Scottish Prince meeting his Italian Slovakian Princess... I mean, how much more epic can you get?! Pffft...that's what I thought!

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